15 Park Avenue
15 Park Avenue .. a movie which again pushed me into that never ending abyss. I feel lost .. Once again falling through those great heights and don't even know where am I falling from and where I will fall; Its a eerie feeling.
Last night I spent a lot of time walking and the thoughts of everything being unreal were all around me .. I was no more afraid of dogs for I didn't even believe that it can do anything to me but then a second later I was myself again .. afraid of the same dog!!!
I kept on walking and thinking about things which have happened in past few days ... really a handful for me. A strange talk with a friend which had quite a effect on me, it was one of those few occasions when I was listening more and talking less; after all I had no answers to whatever he said. I was dumb .. he was thinking on a completely different plane. I realized how two people who don't seem to have any illusions what so ever have so different way of thinking that it almost sounds like a different world. In his world he was nothing .. in my world I am everything and in the what we call the REAL world we are both the same. I couldn't figure out which is the real world for a person. The world which we think is real or the world which everybody thinks is real this blog.. movies everything. At this time a thought came to me .. the inner world which we create for ourselves affects us more so that should be more real. What we call as senses are more or less our creation it has nothing to do with the outer world. What we like or dislike or luxury .. habits everything.
Just for a minute think that all this around you is your illusion ... that there is no office where you earn or a movie hall or a road a car .. nothing. You are just one person sitting somewhere and imagining all this to be happening. It might be that the friends you have might not even exist... . Don't you think its possible.
Is this all an illusion? I hope to find the answer someday
Last night I spent a lot of time walking and the thoughts of everything being unreal were all around me .. I was no more afraid of dogs for I didn't even believe that it can do anything to me but then a second later I was myself again .. afraid of the same dog!!!
I kept on walking and thinking about things which have happened in past few days ... really a handful for me. A strange talk with a friend which had quite a effect on me, it was one of those few occasions when I was listening more and talking less; after all I had no answers to whatever he said. I was dumb .. he was thinking on a completely different plane. I realized how two people who don't seem to have any illusions what so ever have so different way of thinking that it almost sounds like a different world. In his world he was nothing .. in my world I am everything and in the what we call the REAL world we are both the same. I couldn't figure out which is the real world for a person. The world which we think is real or the world which everybody thinks is real this blog.. movies everything. At this time a thought came to me .. the inner world which we create for ourselves affects us more so that should be more real. What we call as senses are more or less our creation it has nothing to do with the outer world. What we like or dislike or luxury .. habits everything.
Just for a minute think that all this around you is your illusion ... that there is no office where you earn or a movie hall or a road a car .. nothing. You are just one person sitting somewhere and imagining all this to be happening. It might be that the friends you have might not even exist... . Don't you think its possible.
Is this all an illusion? I hope to find the answer someday
posted by Siddharth at 9:36 PM
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